Dear Diary,
Today I've been feeling depressed and I have no idea why. I always felt my life's falling apart. My mind is now turning into a jigsaw puzzle, waiting for me to put it back together. It never occured to me that I can do anything that I want to do. I mean... my whole life has been taken control by my brother. He always took advantage of me. He says he can read minds; including my mind but no one can do that. I have a feeling he'll strike back at me any time soon. Or later!




Dear Diary,
Since last year I've been writing songs on my life. My friends asked for my aim. I told them that I'm aiming at 20 song lyrics. If I can get that fast!

That's all I've got on my mind right now.
Bye, Alex

Dear Diary,
I've decided to post this set of lyrics in here. This is called Love Is Here.

You take a deep breath and walk
throught the doors to see all of
your friends pass by. You walk
to your locker and opened your
locker to find a mystery inside.
You read it in your head and you
knew what it said, you fold the
note and placed it in your bag.
You take out your books ready
for class to see a guy you like
is there. You find an empty seat,
sit down and work while he smiles
at you in class. You turned an saw
his dreamy blue eyes and found
yourself daydreamin' when the bell
rang for lunch. He comes up to you,
he whispers in your ear and says "I
like you." That was when...

He wanted you for a pizza date and
knew you can't refuse. you said "yes"
and said you like him too. He smiled
to you and you smiled to him. He said
he had one last thing to say. He said
"love is there for us."

You thought of him day and night,
wondering what's he doin' tonight.
You found yourself waking up from a
bad dream. You saw him outside your
room, came to comfort you. You let
him in, he saw your face, full of
fresh tears and he asked you what's
wrong. You told him you had a bad
dream. He wiped your tears away,
he pulled you to him, he hugged you
tight. He kissed your forhead and
said "goodnight." He stayed with
you 'till you feel asleep.

He wanted you for a pizza date
and you knew you can't refuse.
You said "yes" and said you like
him too. He smiled at you and
you smiled at him. He said he
had one last thing to say. He said
"love is there for us."

Today is the school dance and he
asked you to go with him tonight,
you said "yes." He said he'll pick
you up in his car at 7:30 and you
went home to get all dressed up.
He walked to your doorstep and
ranged the doorbell,you opened
the door and saw him smiling. He
said that you looked beautiful and
you said he looked handsome in
his black tuxedo and he opened the
door in his white car. You both got
to the school in time, danced around
until you felt own out. When the dance
was over he drove you home. He
walked with you to your doorstep. He
looked into your eyes and you looked
into his. You both leaned in and had
your first kiss. You saw him go when
you went inside and smiled to yourself
cause you've kissed by him that you've
liked for so long.

Oh.

He now, wanted you to be his girlfriend
and knew you can't refuse. You said "yes"
and said you wanted to be with him too. He
smiled to you and you smiled to him. He
said that he had one last thing to say. He
said "love is there for us."


25/2/10

It's not hard to have an online diary through a fan site of ur fave TV show/movie etc. Although having the fans and strangers who u don't know may conclude those out. Meaning u may have to think twice before u write on what's on ur online diary. And that's what I'm doing right now. It's been a great year for me, last year was a flop but I can garentee myself that this year will be the year that I will show everyone that I'm not the sad, helpless little girl I used to be, I'm now 14 years old, love doing work (dance, act, sing, homework, writing etc) and has a new changed look.